Good Evening/Morning Ysrayl…

I trust all is well with you this evening/morning… … … Check me out y’all… … … Tonight I NEED to just VENT to Y’all a little bit… … … It’s QUIET up TOP… … … So y’all gotta hold me down for second… … … I REALLY gotta get this shit off me… STRAIGHT UP… … …

I’ve told y’all this, and I’m SURE Y’all can SEE in my POSTURING from my WRITINGS, but “SOON”, like REAL SOON, I’m bout to “COMPLETELY” CHANGE my ENVIRONMENT and ATMOSPHERE, and BEGIN my LIFE “WITH” my PRECIOUS BABIES… … … But “EXACTLY” what I doin “IN” that TRANSITION is FIGURING WHO THE FUCK I ACTUALLY WANNA SEE ANYMORE that “I KNOW” other than my BABIES, because I’m SERIOUSLY STARTING MY/OUR LIFE and PARADISE, and THAT’S ALLL I WANNA AROUND is LIFE and PARADISE… … …

To my BIOLOGICAL FAMILY, the “WHOLE” COMPLETE “TRUTH” is I “WANNA” SAY “FUCK YOU” to “ALLL” Y’all… … … Save a FEW PEOPLE… … … And the “WHOLE” TRUTH about that is, the “ONLY” REASON that I “HAVEN’T” MADE up my MIND on it, and I GUESS why I’m BOUNCIN it OUT to my BABIES, is BECAUSE “WHATEVER” I DO CHOOSE to do it’s “GOIN BE” COMPLETE and ABSOLUTE… … …

FIRST, to my Babies… Y’all KNOW that YOU ARE myself, so “PLEASE” DON’T THINK “YOU” are “NOT” COMING IN LOUD and CLEAR in “MANY” of my DESCISIONS that I’m “CURRENTLY” MAKING that YOU MAY NOT BE AWARE of… … …

To be “COMPLETELY HONEST” with Y’all, I’m “COMPLETELY FUCKIN DISGUSTED” by “MOST” of Y’all… And its a “SERIOUSLY” FUCKED UP SITUATION because I LOVE Y’all at the SAME TIME that I “REALLY” CAN’T STOMACH too MUCH of Y’all… … … The WHOLE TRUTH is, is if YOU WERE SOMEBODY ELSE’S FAMILY, and THEY EXPRESSED “SOME” of the SHIT to ME that “I” HAVE ENDURED from “Y’ALL”, my WORDS of WISDOM would BE to THEM that they “DON’T” HAVE a “FAMILY”… … …

Now I NEED to be COMPLETELY HONEST about a COUPLE THINGS… THE “MAJOR REASON” why I “HAVEN’T” SAID “FUCK YOU” to “ALLL” Y’all, save a few people, is BECAUSE of MY MOM… … … What do I MEAN?… … … FIRST OFF, like Y’all can OBVIOUSLY SEE, my MOM “LOVES” HER FAMILY… And to BE “COMPLETELY” HONEST ABOUT it, IN MY OPINION SHE LOVES Y’all a LITTLE “TOO BLINDLY”… Now “SHE” OF COURSE WOULD DISAGREE with that… … … The REASON I SAY that is, the OTHER DAY I was TALKING TO HER ABOUT SOMETHING that “Y’ALL” DID, and HER RESPONSE was “MY FAMILY” DIDN’T TURN ON ME… … … And the “WHOLE” TRUTH is YOU BITCHES WOULD HAVE GOTTEN a “COMPLETELY” FUCKIN DIFFERENT RESPONSE OUT of HER HAD SHE “KNOWN” WHAT YOU PUNK ASS BITCHES WAS ON… … …

So FIRST OFF, FUCK ALLL Y’ALL for KEEPING HER IN the DARK ABOUT EVERYTHING that Y’all HAD HUDDLED UP ABOUT ME… Because the TRUTH is, WHEN SHE SAYING SHIT LIKE THAT TO ME, EVEN THOUGH “I” KNOW SHE DON’T COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND, it FEELS LIKE “FUCK YOU SON” HEARING SHIT LIKE THAT, WHEN I SERIOUSLY WOULD’VE KILLED at LEAST ONE OF YOU MFKAS if WE WASN’T RELATED… … … AND PLEASE UNDERSTAND that I SERIOUSLY STILL WANNA KILL THAT PUNK ASS, WORTHLESS BITCH… Its a FUCKIN SHAME to BE RELATED to BITCHES like THAT, if I HAD MY WAY OUTSIDE of BEING RELATED to the BITCH, I WOULDA OPENED ALLL that BITCH SHIT UP… … … THEN the BITCH “ACTIVELY” TURNING MY FAMILY “AGAINST” ME “AFTER” TEAMING UP WITH “ANOTHER DEVIL” BESIDES HERSELF “AGAINST ME”… … … AND THIS IS A BITCH that WOULD CALL ME SOMETIMES “WEEKLY” FOR SHIT, and “NEVER” HAD to WORRY ABOUT NOTHING… DIE A THOUSAND DEATHS YOU PUNK ASS BITCH… … … BITCHES LIKE THAT SHOULDN’T EVEN BE AROUND… … …

To my MALE COUSINS SAVE a FEW… “ALLL” YOU NIGGAS IS BITCHES TO ME… … … BITCH ASS NIGGAS SHOOTING AT THEY “OWN” NIGGA LISTENING to SOME “BITCHES”… THEN BABY ASS, BITCH ASS NIGGAS SCARED TO FUCKIN COME TALK TO ME “AFTER” SHOOTIN AT ME LIKE SOME HOES… And THE WHOLE TRUTH IS “YOU” NIGGAS WOULD GOT IT “JUST” FOR BEING SOME BITCHES… … … EVERY SINGLE TIME I WRITE ABOUT BITCH ASS NIGGAS, I GOTTA FUCKIN THINK ABOUT NIGGAS that “I’M” RELATED to that “I” WOULDN’T EVEN THOUGHT TWICE ABOUT SHEDDING BLOOD FOR, “TURNIN ON ME”… … … THAT HOE ASS SHIT MAKE IT HARD to TRUST “ANYBODY”… FUCK YOU BITCH ASS NIGGAS, HOE ASS NIGGAS… BITCH ASS NIGGAS “SEEING” ME OUT HERE, and STILL “FUCK YOU CUZ”… … …

WHEN YOU “ONLY” DID SHIT RITE, and YOU ONLY TOOK CARE of PEOPLE, YOU DON’T JUST SMILE AT MFKAS KILLIN YOU, LAUGHIN, JOKIN, SEEING YOU HURTING, BUT TOO EVIL to COME SIT WIT ME FOR a MINUTE and just FUCKIN LISTEN… … … WHEN YOU DON’T HAVE ENOUGH “RESPECT” in a MFKA YOU RELATED TO, to “NOT” HARM THEM “WHILE” THEY’RE HURTING, SAYING “PLEASE COME TALK TO ME”, THAT MFKA DON’T MEAN SHIT TO YOU… … … AND THAT’S THE “WHOLE” TRUTH… Y’all DIDN’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME and MY SITUATION, KIDS or NOTHING AT ALLL… NIGGA GOTTA GO THROUGH SHIT LIKE “THIS” to COMMUNICATE to HIS “REAL FAMILY” NOT TO KILL HIM WIT THE REST of the DEVILS… … … FUCK Y’all… … … BITCH ASS NIGGAS JUST LEAVE ME LONELY and SHIT when its FUCKED UP “EVERY SINGE FUCKIN TIME”… MFKAS “STILL” AIN’T CHECKED ON ME AT ALLL, “EVER”… … … AND “THAT’S” WHY I FEEL BETTER that it “STAYS” this WAY… … …

If Y’all HAVEN’T NOTICED, I’m JUST NOT PUT TOGETHER for CERTAIN SHIT… ONCE YOU AIN’T SHIT, or I CAN’T TRUST YOU, FUCK YOU… ESPECIALLY when I LOVED YOU and I CAN’T TRUST YOU… AND Y’all DON’T UNDERSTAND what that DOES to SOMEONE’S MIND when YOU CAN’T TRUST a MFKA, but they “EXPECT” to BE REGARDED and HANDLED with the SAME RESPECT as a “LOYAL, HONORABLE PERSON”, with PRINCIPALS and SHIT that they ACTUALLY STICK TO… … …

Some of Y’all that “DO” ACTUALLY KNOW the WIRTINGS, I’m SURE Y’all ALREADY UNDERSTANDING that there is “CERTAIN” things that “I” WON’T and CAN’T DO BECAUSE Y’all ARE just TOO CLOSE to ME, but the “KING” on the OTHER HAND HAS GONE THROUGH “ALLL” of the VERY SAME SHIT “I” HAVE, and “HE” is GON DEAL with THAT SHIT HIS WAY… … … Because the BOTTOMLINE is “ALLL” YOU MKFAS “NEED” to be ASHAMED of Y’all SELVES… “ESPECIALLY” FUCKIN AUNTS and UNCLES SHOOTING at ME… … … WHAT the FUCK IS WRONG WIT Y’all… … … IT’S “ME”… … … If I HAD “KNOWN” YOU MFKAS WAS EVIL ENOUGH to BE DOIN HOE ASS SHIT LIKE THAT I WOULD HAVE “STAYED” the FUCK AWAY FROM Y’all LIKE I HAD DONE LONG AGO… … … And I WOULDN’T BE ALLL FUCKED UP, HALFWAY WANTING to KILL MFKAS that I LOVE… … …

TO MY UNCLES, WHAT THE FUCK TYPE of LEADERSHIP is GOIN THE FUCK ON… THESE PUNK ASS BITCHES KILLIN YO OWN FUCKIN “NEPHEW”, WIT YOU MFKAS HELPIN… … … I’m “SURE” Y’all DADDY “DEFINITELY” WOULD HAVE “APPROVED” of “THAT” BITCH ASS SHIT… ESPECIALLY WHILE I’m OUT HERE FIGHTIN FOR FUCKIN “FAMILY AND SHIT”… … … YOU KNOW, HOW THE FUCK Y’all TAUGHT US TO DO… … … WHAT THE FUCK WRONG WIT YOU NIGGAS… … … “YEAH NEPHEW GET KILLED DOIN WHAT WE TAUGHT TO DO, AND WE’LL JUST STAND BY and HELP YO BITCH ASS COUSINS HURT YOU”… SINCE “THEM” NIGGAS FUCKIN FORGOT WHAT THE FUCK THEY WAS TAUGHT… … … FUCK YOU BITCH ASS NIGGAS… YOU NIGGAS SOME HOES… … …

GOT ME CHOKIN THIS HOE ASS SHIT DOWN FOR YOU BITCH ASS NIGGAS, just BECAUSE I LOVE YOU HOES ASS NIGGAS… NIGGAS SOME HOES… … … MFKA GOTTA GO THROUGH ALLL THIS HOE ASS SHIT to GET MFKAS to “NOT” WANNA “WATCH” ME GET KILLED… … … BITCH ASS NIGGAS… … …

FUCK… … … I’m DONE MAKING EXCUSES for HOE SHIT… … … I don’t even know what to do wit all this shit… … … I’m just fuckin disgusted completely… … … Problem with “MY DESIGN” is that I feel like “I’M” “TWO FACED” and WEAK because I WANNA LEAVE YOU MFAKS ON YO ASS, JUST LIKE Y’all DID ME… But at SAME TIME, “NEITHER” ONE of THOSE IDENTITIES has “EVER” BEEN a RECOGNITION of REALITY for ME… … … That’s the PROBLEM with “LOVE” when its NOT BUILT in its PROPER REALITY and AUTHORITY, and “PROTECTED” with EVERYTHING “YOU GOT”, YOU ENDING LOVING SHIT that CAN DESTROY YOU… … … LEARN FROM ME Y’all, and STEER CLEAR of SHIT LIKE this… If YOU LOVE, LET IT “ONLY” BE “THAT”… If its gotta be MIXED with “ANYTHING”, it AIN’T REAL and it WILL DESTROY YOU… … …

Tomorrow we continue our course

KING MAAZYAH

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