Good Evening Ysrayl…

I trust all is well with you this evening… … … Check it out… … … I KNOW I’m SUPPOSED to be WRITING “FOR REAL”, but I been MOVIN and GROOVIN ALLL DAY… … … ACTUALLY this has just been a “NEVER ENDING WEEK” for ME… … … SHIT FEEL LIKE I JUST GOT OUT THE JOINT AGAIN… … … IT AIN’T “NOTHING” MORE STRESSFUL than the “WEEK” YOU GO HOME FROM the JOINT… IF “ANY” NIGGA TELL YOU HE “DIDN’T” LOSE WEIGHT “IN” that “GO HOME WEEK” from the JOINT, THAT NIGGA “SUPPOSED TO STAYED” IN the JOINT… … … BULLSHIT AIN’T NOTHIN… … … “NIGGA IF THEY FIND OUT ABOUT “ALLL” THAT “OTHER SHIT”, MY BLACK ASS AIN’T GOIN “NOWHERE”, is “WHAT” NIGGAS REALLY BE “THINKIN” THAT “WHOLE ENTIRE GO HOME WEEK”… … … “PLEASE BELIEVE THAT SHIT LIKE SCRIPTURE”… … … DON’T LET THAT TOUGH NIGGA SHIT FOOL YOU… … … NIGGAS BE HUMBLE THEN A MFKA THAT “GO HOME WEEK”… COURTEOUS, HELPIN OUT and SHIT… DON’T WANNA “AROUSE” NO “UNNECESSARY ATTENTION or SUSPICION”… … …

So CHECK IT OUT… … … I NEED to have a LITTLE SIT DOWN WIT MY PRECIOUS, SWEET, BEAUTIFUL, SEXY, DELICIOUS, LIFE GIVING QUEENS TONIGHT about a FEW THINGS… AND SINCE its a “COUPLE” of Y’all ACTIN LIKE WE GON END UP BEING “FAMILY”, I GUESS Y’all can KNOW “TOO”… … … Y’all BETTER GET IT ALLL IN, BECASUE “Y’all” AIN’T GON BE GETTIN OUR “FOR REAL” BUSINESS “OPEN”, and FREE FLOWING LIKE THIS… … … WE STILL GON “TEACH” in OUR SAME CAPACITY and AUTHORITY, BUT “WE ARE” a “FAMILY”, and OUR “REAL BUSINESS” ISN’T FOR “EVERYBODY”… … …

But what I would LIKE to SAY to my BEAUTIFUL, SWEET, PURE, LIFE GIVING, SEXY, AMAZING, RADIANT, FEIRCE, BREATHTAKING, NOURISHING, STRONG, GENTLE, PASSIONATE, DELICIOUS QUEENS is, “FIRST”, “ALLL” of YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY “NO CLUES” HOW MUCH BEAUTY, STRENGTH and LIFE YOU HAVE GIVEN ME… “SERIOUSLY”, YOU “ARE” MY WHOLE LIFE… AND THERE “IS NO” OTHER WAY to UNDERSTAND THAT “OTHER” THAN “LITERAL”… … … Oooh Wee Y’all DON’T UNDERSTAND even though YOU DO a LITTLE BIT… … …

SO “FIRST” I NEED to “ACKNOWLEDGE” YOUR AUTHORITY to SAVE LIFE, LOVE, BEAUTY and AUTHORITY… BECAUSE its LITERALLY “NOTHING” LESS than “THAT”… … … ALLL of YOU ARE ABSOLUTE DREAMS COME TRUE, and THERE IS NO REAL WAY to EXPRESS MY “LOVE, RESPECT and ABSOLUTE REGARD” for YOUR AUTHORITY and LIFE THROUGH “WRITING”, but YOU ARE ALLL PERFECTION and EXCELLENCE in EVERY SINGLE WAY… … …

My PRECIOUS LOVES “THIS” is YOUR HUSBAND’S “CURRENT” SITUATION, and MY/OUR PLANS for the VERY NEAR FUTURE… … … I HAVE “DIVORCED” a WOMAN that I SHOULD’VE “NEVER” EVEN KNOWN as a “FRIEND”… AND I “DON’T” SAY that BECAUSE of ENDURING “TWENTY YEARS” of FUCKIN HELL and DESTRUCTION in “EVERY” FORM, I’m SAYING THAT BECAUSE “SHE” was a “CURSE” that “I” DIDN’T “DESERVE” at ALLL, and SHOULD HAVE “NEVER” FUCKIN HAPPENED… … …

But ANYWAY, my SITUATION is THAT I HAVE CHILDREN that SHE “IS” the BIOLOGICAL MOTHER of, then I HAVE “TWO” SONS, NINE and FOUR, that ARE “NOT” HER BIOLOGICAL CHILDREN, and “UNFORTUNATELY”, “SHE” is the “ONLY” IMAGE of a “MOTHER” that they HAVE “EVER” KNOWN… … … So EVEN THOUGH THIS WOMAN HAS BEEN “NOTHING” BUT FUCKIN HELL, TORMENT, DEATH and DESTRUCTION to and FOR ME, “SHE” is the “ONLY” IMAGE of a “MOTHER” that MY YOUNGEST TWO SONS HAVE EVER HAD… … … WHICH “SERIOUSLY” DOESN’T SAY “MUCH”, BEING AN “ADULT” and COMPLETELY UNDERSTANDING HOW “REALITY” is SUPPOSED to LOOK as a “PARENT”, or “MOTHER IMAGE” to “ANY” CHILD… … … BUT HOW do YOU “EXPLAIN” SHIT LIKE that to a “NINE and FOUR” YEAR OLD, and “THAT” has been the “ONLY” REALITY and IMAGE of MOTHERING they HAVE REALLY KNOWN?… … …

So WHAT I’m SAYING is “THIS”… I of COURSE HAVE BEEN TALKING to MY CHILDREN ABOUT “EVERYTHING”, but “NOW” I’m ACTUALLY GONNA “HAVE TO” BEGIN to SEPARATE my SONS FROM the “ONLY” MOTHER that THEY HAVE “KNOWN”… … … AND as a FATHER, Y’all CAN “IMAGINE” HOW MUCH FUN “THIS” is ABOUT to BE… … …

So the REASON that I’m TELLIN my BABIES THIS “OPENLY” is because I HAVE to TAKE some ADVICE I GOT FROM my BEAUTIFUL QUEEN B, as well as my OWN BIOLOGICAL MOTHER, and MAKE MYSELF as “BIG” as I POSSIBLY CAN AROUND THEM to MAKE THIS TRANSITION as… … … WE’LL SAY, COMFORTABLE and LESS DAMAGING as I POSSIBLY CAN… … …

SO for a SHORT SPELL I NEED to TEND to my BOYS, and to be “COMPLETELY” OPEN and HONEST “MYSELF” as WELL… … … I “SERIOUSLY” JUST “NEED” to “AIR OUT” for a SECOND… … … Y’ALL DON’T EVEN UNDERSTAND… … … So what I’m SAYING is, EVEN THOUGH WE was “SUPPOSED” to be DOIN what WE SUPPOSED to be DOIN at “10:01am” on WEDNESDAY, I NEED to TEND to my BOYS VERY INTENSELY THROUGH this TRANSITION… AND REALLY LET “MYSELF” AIR OUT as WELL… … …

So WHAT I WILL DO, “SINCE a COUPLE of Y’all READIN” acting LIKE WE GON END UP BEING “FAMILY”, and Y’all KNOW ALLL my BUSINESS ANYWAY, in a COUPLE WEEKS I’m GONNA “UPDATE” Y’all ON “EVERYTHING”, and HOW THINGS ARE GOIN with THEM and MYSELF… … … I’m “NOT” SAYING that I’m GONNA “STOP” WRITING, I’m JUST TALKING ABOUT MY PERSONAL LIFE that Y’all “DON’T SEE”… I’m STILL GONNA WRITE EVERYDAY… … …

The OTHER thing that I wanna BRIEFLY DISCUSS SINCE I DON’T HAVE to WORRY ABOUT KILLIN a EVIL MFKA that “WOULD” try to STEAL FROM me if SHE COULD, is that ONE of these DAYS SOON I’m gonna set up an ACCOUNT so those that would like to DONATE to ME, CAN DO SO… … … But WHAT I WANNA MAKE CLEAR is “THIS” RITE AWAY… … … “NONE” of “THIS” is for the BUILDING of our CITY, this will be just for those that WOULD LIKE to DONATE SOMETHING to MYSELF… I UNDERSTAND that SOME PEOPLE WOULD LIKE TO, and I OF COURSE DON’T MIND and COMPLETELY APPRECIATE IT, but I DON’T WANT ANYONE THINKING THAT its FOR OUR CITY… … …

I ALSO WANNA SAY SOMETHING to a “CERTAIN” GROUP of PEOPLE… … … “SINGLE MOTHERS” that ARE DOIN what they “SUPPOSED” to be DOIN “FOR REAL”, and YOU “SERIOUSLY” BE HOLDIN IT DOWN “FOR REAL” LIKE a “REAL MOTHER”… IF “ANY” OF YOU would LIKE to GIVE “ANYTHING” to ME, but “SOMETIMES” THINGS can BE a LITTLE HARD for YOU FINANCIALLY, ‘THIS” is WHAT “I” NEED for “YOU” to DO for “ME”… … … SINGLE MOTHERS, AND “ONLY” THOSE that RECONGIZE ME “FOR REAL”, and BE DOIN WHAT YOU SUPPOSED to be DOIN “FOR REAL”… … …

If YOU ARE a “SINGLE MOTHER”, and YOU SOMETIMES THINGS can GET JUST a LITTLE TIGHT FOR YOU FROM TIME TO TIME, what “I” NEED for “YOU” to DO FOR ME is “THIS”… … … SET “ME” UP an ACCOUNT IN “YOUR” NAME, and “EVERY SINGLE TIME” YOU FEEL LIKE YOU WANNA GIVE ME “ANYTHING”, I DON’T CARE if its FIVE DOLLARS, “I” NEED for YOU TO PUT THAT “FIVE DOLLARS” into “MY ACCOUNT”, WITH YOUR NAME ON IT… … … AND “I” DON’T WANT YOU to EVEN “THINK” ABOUT that ACCOUNT, OR CHECK the BALANCE ON IT, “UNLESS”, Its a SITUATION that “YOU KNOW” “I” would LOAN “YOU” MY MONEY “FOR”… … … But OTHER than “THAT”, DON’T EVEN “THINK” about that ACCOUNT… … … AND Y’all KNOW I’m SERIOUS… … … But I’m ONLY TALKING to the SINGLE MOTHERS that RECOGNIZE “ME” and MY BABIES as FAMILY, and THINGS GET a LITTLE BIT ROUGH FROM TIME to TIME… … …

NOW THIS is WHAT’S GONNA HAPPEN… … … ONE of MY BABIES is GONNA “MARK” this DAY, and EXACTLY “ONE YEAR” from “TODAY”, SHE is GONNA “REMIND” ME that “Y’all” BUILT an ACCOUNT “IN” MY AUTHORITY that BELONGS to the “BETTERMENT” of “YOUR” REALITY and SITUATION… AND AT the END of “THAT” YEAR, “I” WILL TELL Y’all “EXACTLY” WHAT I NEED for “Y’ALL” to DO to BETTER “YOU”, and YOUR AUTHORITY as a QUEEN and MOTHER with the MONEY that YOU GAVE TO “ME”… … … And I REALLY DO GOT SOMETHING UP my SLEEVE, so I NEED for Y’all to BE FOR REAL WIT ME… … …

So the DONATIONS will “NOT” be for the “CITY/CITIES”… THAT WILL BE HANDLED the WAY it NEEDS to be HANDLED when we GET to that POINT… AND DONATIONS “ARE NOT” for SINGLE MOTHERS that SOMETIMES RUN INTO a TIGHT SPOT from TIME to TIME, but ARE STILL “ABSOLUTELY” BEAUTIFUL, LIFE GIVING and AMAZING MOTHERS that RECOGNIZE ME and MY BABIES as FAMILY… … …

LASTLY, Y’all KNOW I GOTTA HIT Y’all with some LIFE… … … This “PARTICULAR” SONG that Y’all ARE ABOUT to HEAR is FROM a BROTHER that “I” PERSONALLY DON’T KNOW TOO MUCH ABOUT, EVEN THOUGH “EVERYBODY” BLACK KNOW HIS NAME… MOST, if not ALLL of HIS WORK, to “MY” KNOWLEDGE, is in a GENRE THAT “I” DON’T KNOW MUCH ABOUT… … … BUT I SERIOUSLY HAVE to TELL YOU that the WORDS OF this SONG “PEIRCED” ME in a WAY that LITERALLY ALMOST PUT ME ON the FLOOR… … … I DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW I CAME ACROSS THIS SONG… … … BUT I’m GLAD that I DID… … … THOSE WORDS WERE TOO REAL FOR ME… … … ITS an EXTREMELY BEAUTIFUL SONG to ME, and ALLL those of LIGHT INVOLVED IN it NEED to UNDERSTAND that WE “SEE” THEM… … … I ESPECALLY LIKE the VIDEO… … … And as USUAL, Y’all are welcome to JOIN ME and MY BABIES IF YOU LIKE… … …

Marvin Sapp- Thank You for It All

Tomorrow we continue our course

KING MAAZYAH

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