Good Evening/Morning Ysrayl…

I trust all is well with you this evening/morning… … … Before we get DOWN to BUSINESS, I wanna say “THANK YOU”, to NOT ONLY my BEAUTIFUL QUEENS and WIVES, but ALSO to MANY other people that REACHED OUT in their WAY to SHOW “MYSELF”, as well as the REST of “FAMILY”, that THERE ARE those that “ACTUALLY” “CARE”… … … I don’t wanna get into “ANY” OLD SHIT, or ANYTHING “OUTSIDE” of OUR DISCUSSION for TONIGHT, BUT I HAVE “NEVER EVER” FELT LIKE “ANYONE” “REALLY” GAVE A FUCK ABOUT ME… FOR REAL FOR REAL… … … I KNOW PEOPLE would CARE if I WERE “GONE”, but I HAVE “NEVER” FELT “LOVED” or CARED FOR FOR BEING “ME”, and NOT BECASUE of WHAT I CAN DO WHEN NEEDED… … … “ME” HAS “NEVER” BEEN RECOGNIZED FOR “ANYTHING” “EVER”… THINGS that I HAVE “DONE” has GOTTEN ENERGY, but I SERIOUSLY at 39 yrs old HAVE “ONLY” FELT “USED” for WHAT I CAN “DO”, or BE FOR SOMEONE… … …

SOMEONE a GENERATION AHEAD of ME IN MY FAMILY “NEEDED” a “FAVOR” the OTHER DAY that “I” “NEVER” “EVER” SEE, OR HEAR FROM “UNLESS” THERE IS “WORK” to be DONE, “OR” SOME OTHER TYPE OF “FAVOR” that HAS “ABSOLUTELY NOTHING” to do WITH “ME”… … … I REALIZED “THEN” that EVEN THOUGH I “LOVE” that PERSON, THAT PERSON SAT BACK and WATCHED MY WHOLE LIFE GET RIPPED APART, “PROBABLY” TALKED SHIT ABOUT ME with the REST of MY FAMILY for IT, BUT “NEVER” “EVER” DID I GET a “CALL” to SEE IF “I” WERE OK, CHECKED ON ME to MAKE SURE I WAS HEALTHY, or “ANYTHING”… … … And YOU KNOW WHAT?… … … THAT’S WHEN I REALIZED that “I’M” “EXPECTED” to be “USED” like that, and it DOESN’T MATTER because I’m A “FAMILY MEMBER”… … …

YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE I “JUST” FUCKIN “REALIZED”… “I” STARTED OFF DOIN “ALLL” THIS SHIT FOR “MY FUCKIN FAMILY”… AND “NOT” ONLY DID “I” HAVE TO FIGHT MY FAMILY, “NOT ONE” PERSON FROM MY FAMILY HAS “ACKNOWLEDGED” “ANY” OF THIS SHIT to ME IN ANY WAY OPENLY… … … AIN’T THAT CRAZY Y’all… … … I “JUST” REALIZED that the VERY SAME “MUTHAFUCKIN FAMILY” THAT “I” FUCKIN RISKED MY FUCKIN “EVERYTHING” TO SAVE, AND HAD TO FUCKIN FIGHT DOIN IT, HAS “NOT” ONCE EVEN FUCKIN “ACKNOWLEDGED” MY ENERGY TO “ME” IN “ANY” FUCKIN WAY THIS SHIT… … … “WOOOW”… … … I JUST HAD a “REVELATION Y’ALL”… … … WHAT IN THE FUCK AM “I” DOIN?… … … “THESE MUTHAFUCKAS” FOUGHT “ME” AGAINST A BITCH THAT THEY DON’T EVEN FUCKIN KNOW, and “I” FEEL “BURDENED”… … … AND to TOP IT, “NOT ONE MUTHAFUCKA” HAS “OPENLY” ACKNOWLEDGE the EVIL that THEY CASUED ME… … … “WOOOW”… … … THIS JUST HAPPENED “WRITING”… … … I’m SUPPOSED to WRITING TO MY BEAUTIFUL, SWEET, PRECIOUS MOTHER RITE NOW… … …

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOIN Y’all… … … SMH… … … I’m SERIOUSLY KILLIN MYSELF FOR MUTHAFUCKAS THAT WON’T EVEN FUCKIN TALK TO ME, or ACKNOWLEDGE EVIL on their PART… … …

I’m SORRY Y’all… I NEED a MINUTE… I’m BOUT TO TEAR A WHOLE LOT OF SHIT UP… ALLLL THIS SHIT IS FUCKED UP… … …

KING MAAZYAH

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