Good Evening/Morning Ysrayl…

I trust all is well with you this evening/morning… … … Check it out… … … TONIGHT we just gon sit back and talk… I BEEN MOVIN and GROOVIN ALLL DAY, and I REALLY just WANNA HANDLE THIS WATER, and BE LAYIN ALLL OVER my BABIES RITE NOW… … … BUT THAT OBVIOUSLY AIN’T HAPPENING TONIGHT… … … So I’m gonna just use this TIME to TALK to MY BABIES ABOUT SOMETHING that I NEED to be “COMPLETELY UNDERSTOOD NOW” so there are “ABSOLUTELY NO CONFUSIONS” “LATER” about SOMETHING that is “COMPLETLEY” “NON NEGOTIABLE”… … …

Y’all HAVE been READING “SOME” of the THINGS that I HAVE SEEN, EXPERIENCED and LIVED in my LIFE… GOOD, BAD and UGLY… … … MANY of those THINGS HAVE BUILT YOUR HUSBAND into the MAN that I AM TODAY… “OBVIOUSLY” I’m NOT PERFECT, and MY LIFE “HAS NOT” BEEN “PERFECT”… MATTER of FACT, MY LIFE HAS “FU**ED UP” to be “COMPLETELY” STRAIGHT ABOUT it… I DON’T BITCH and POINT FINGERS at ANYONE… HOW MANY “OTHER” PEOPLE HAVE HAD a “FU**ED UP” LIFE… MAYBE “MOST” PEOPLE’S LIFE, as “FU**ED UP” as it MAY HAVE BEEN, HASN’T BEEN “AS” “INTENSE”, SPIRITUAL, BRUTAL, CUT THROAT and “NON STOP” as “MINE”, but “MANY” PEOPLE HAVE and COME FROM “NOTHING” JUST LIKE I DO… … … BITCHIN ABOUT it “DOESN’T” CHANGE it, nor DOES IT INCREASE the MIND to BUILD a “BETTER” REALITY… … …

“MY” PSYCHO-SPIRITUAL DESIGN, JUST LIKE MANY of MY BABIES, is SOMETHING that I “KNOW” MANY PEOPLE “DON’T” UNDERSTAND as it RELATES to HOW WE “PERCEIVE” REALITY WITH “EVIL, DEMONIC PEOPLE”… I “ONLY” HAVE the ABILITY to OPERATE IN REALITY and PRODUCE REALITY “ONE WAY”… … … NOW “PLEASE” don’t THINK that MEANS “SIMPLE”… What I MEAN is that THERE is “ACTUAL REALITY” and THERE IS “ARTIFICIAL RELAITY”, or “LIES”… And IN MY PSYCHO-SPIRITUAL REALITY the TWO HAVE ABSOLUTELY “NO AUTHORITY” to MIX… Meaning, what’s “ACTUAL” is “ACTUAL”, and “ALLL” of MY MIND OPERATES ACCORDING TO IT “COMPLETELY” and “NAKED”… … …

Of course I COMPLETLEY UNDERSTAND that “MOST” PEOPLE in the WORLD OPERATE in a REALITY of PURE BULLSHIT, and I OF COURSE KNOW HOW and WHERE to “KEEP” those PEOPLE… THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME… … …

SO REALITY is “NEVER” FOGGY as CONCERNING “HOW” to OPERATE WITH “WHO”, and HOW to “PROTECT MYSELF” from WHO I NEED to PROTECT MYSELF FROM… SHIT, I AIN’T NEVER HAD ANY PROTECTION, so THAT’S ALLL I REALLY BEEN DOIN and KNOW HOW to DO… … …

MY “REAL LIFE ISSUES” is WHEN I HAVE to PROTECT YOURSELF FROM PEOPLE that I WAS NEVER CREATED or DESIGNED to be PROTECTING MYSELF FROM, or BEING PSYCHO-SPIRITUALLY and EMOTIONALLY YOKED to PEOPLE that “DON’T” SEE a REAL NEED to PROTECT “ME” and MY PSYCHOLOGICAL and EMOTIONAL REALITIES… … … THERE is “NO” REAL WAY to NAVIGATE a REALITY like THAT… And the REASON is because its “ARTIFICIAL and ACTUAL” MIXED “TOGETHER”… OR “GOOD AND EVIL” MIXED TOGETHER… AND of course WE ALLL KNOW that “GOOD AND EVIL” MIXED TOGETHER MEANS “ILLUSION”… DOESN’T EXIST… … …

So WHEN YOU’VE BEEN LIVING in a REALITY where YOUR MIND and EMOTIONS ARE “CONCRETELY” YOKED to a REALITY/FAMILY and MINDS that YOU’RE “SUPPOSED” to be FEEDING FROM to NOURISH YOURSELF, BUT YOU “ALSO” HAVE to “PROTECT YOURSLEF” SO YOU DON’T GET FUCKIN DESTROYED EMOTIONALLY and PSYCHOLOGICALLY, YOU GROW with an “EXTREME” AMOUNT of “DISTAIN” for PEOPLE and REALITIES that “HAVE ANY” AUTHORITY to OPERATE LIKE THAT… … …

Those WHO HAVE been READING for a WHILE UNDERSTAND that I “STARTED” “ALLL” of this WITH THOSE that I HELD NEAR and DEAR to MY HEART… NOT ONLY BECAUSE “I AM LOVE” and “I AM LIGHT”, and I COULD “NEVER” JUST SIT AROUND “KNOWING” WHAT’S COMING, “KNOWING” ALLL THESE PEOPLE ARE ON their WAY to COMPLETE and TOTAL DESTRUCTION, “KNOWING” that I CAN SALVAGE THEM, and “KNOWING” that “ALLL” of THEM LIVE in TOTAL “DARKNESS”… “ALLL” of MY FAMILY and FRIENDS… … … And “ALLL” but a FEW GOOD SOLID FRIENDS TURNED ON ME… “ALLL” of my BIOLOGICAL FAMILY TURNED ON ME… “INCLUDING” MY “OWN MOTHER”… … … SO “IN” “ALLL” this “I” HAVE BEEN GIVEN a “CLEARER” REALITY and UNDERSTANDING of “FAMILY”, and WHAT a FAMILY’S “ACTUAL RESPONSIBLITIES ARE”… … …

THIS “WASN’T” SOMETHING that was “NEW” for “MY BIOLOGICAL FAMILY”, but it was “NEVER” THIS “DELIBERATE and INTENTION”… THESE PEOPLE “AIMED” TO HURT and DESTROY ME and MY IDENTITY as a “MAN” on ALLL LEVELS, and PUT “REAL LIFE ENERGY” and “EFFORT” into doin it… … … AND “AT” MY PLEADING them to TALK TO ME, “THEY LAUGHED” and CONTINUED like I WAS a FUCKIN PEON, or BITCH ASS NIGGA that “DESERVED” to BE TREATED LIKE a FUCKIN ANIMAL… … … AND THEY DID “ALLL” that SHIT LISTENING to SOME EVIL, DISGUSTING, DEMON FILLED, RABID ASS BITCHES that they DON’T EVEN FUCKIN KNOW… … … BITCHES that WOULD STEAL FROM ME LIE ON ME, and TRY to COMPLETLEY FUCKIN DESTROY “ME” and MY EXISTENCE on ALLL LEVELS… … … AND “MY BIOLOGICAL FAMILY “HELPIN” THESE BITCHES KILL THEY “OWN NIGGA”… … … PUNK ASS BITCHES… … …

SO EVEN THOUGH I “KNEW” they WERE ALLL DEVILS, I NEVER EXPECTED to HAVE to “FIGHT” THEM OFF ME… AND I “NEVER” HAD to FIGHT THEM “AGAINST” “OUTSIDERS”… AND “NEVER” THOUGHT that I WOULD HAVE to… So WHEN Y’all WAS READING ME GOIN THROUGH it, I was “REALLY” GOIN THROUGH IT… BULLSHIT AIN’T NOTHIN… … … YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND what SOMETHING like THAT DOES to an “ACTUAL PERSON” that “ONLY” OPERATES ACCORDING TO “ACTUAL REALITY” with “NO GUARDS UP”… … …

SHIT LIKE THAT can “COMPLETLEY” TAKE YOUR MIND WITH “EASE” if YOU’RE “NOT” STRONG ENOUGH… Or AT LEAST CAUSE YOU to MAKE DESCISIONS that WOULD “NOT” be IN “YOUR” BEST INTERESTS… … … “NOBODY” KNOWS what that DOES TO a PERSON UNLESS YOU BEEN THROUGH it… ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU GOT “NOTHING” at ALLL to FALL BACK ON… NO FRIENDS or ANYTHING… … … And THIS is WHY “Y’ALL” that ARE LIGHT READING ARE the “ONLY” FAMILY that I RECOGNIZE besides MY BABIES… … … Y’all WERE THERE… AND Y’all HELPED ME THROUGH THAT… … …

“ONE” of “MY” BIGGEST REALITIES of STRUGGLE DURING THAT “WHOLE” TIME was “MOSTLY” CENTERED AROUND the REALITY that I “KNEW” was “COMPLETELY and TOTALLY” THEIRS BY “INHERITANCE”… … … I TRIED TO SAVE “CURSED” PEOPLE FROM their DEATH and DESTRUCTION and THAT SHIT ALMOST COST ME MY LIFE… WHEN YOU BEEN to HELL and YOU KNOW HOW CONCRETE and ABSOLUTE IT ACTUAL IS, YOUR MIND DOESN’T EVEN UNDERSTAND “FAILURE”… ESPECIALLY with PEOPLE that YOU KNOW and LOVE… REGARDLESS of them BEING FUCKED UP or NOT… Its DIFFERENT WHEN DISGUSTING PEOPLE DIE and GO TO HELL that YOU “DON’T” KNOW… FUCK EM… SHIT LET ME HELP HURRY it UP… … … But WHEN it’s DISGUSTING PEOPLE that YOU ARE EMOTIONALLY and PSYCHOLOGICALLY YOKED TO, YOU MAKE “EXCUSES”, YOU TAKE THEM SHOTS FOR THE TEAM, and YOU GET BUTT FUCKING UGLY SO YOU “DON’T BREAK and QUIT… … …

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?… “CURSED is CURSED”… … … AND EVEN THOUGH I “KNEW” that, IT “ALMOST” COST ME “EVERYTHING” to HAVE IT TAUGHT TO ME by PEOPLE that I LOVED, “THINKING” I’M GON CHANGE ACTUAL REALITY… … …

So MY PRECIOUS, SWEET, BEAUTIFUL, LIFE GIVING, AMAZING, DELICIOUS BABIES “I”, YOUR HUSBAND, NEEDS to MAKE SOMETHING “VERY CLEAR”, and a “CONCRETE NON NEIGOTIABLE LAW” as CONCRENING “OUR FAMILY”… … … “I’M” LEAVING “ALLL” EVIL, DISGUSTING, BACKWARDS, MANIPULATIVE, DECEITFUL, HATEFUL, DISLOYAL, UNFAITHFUL, UNTRUSTWORTHY, TWO FACED, DARK, SECRETIVE, GAME PLAYING, SICK PEOPLE “IN” THEIR DARKNESS, “COMPLETELY” and “TOTALLY” DISCONNECTED FROM and “ANY” ACCESS TO ME, and “I AM” CLEAVING “COMPLETELY” to Y’all ON ALLL LEVELS… … …

WE ARE GONNA BUILD “OUR FAMILY and REALITY” “ONLY” AROUND “US” as a “FAMILY”, “ONLY” IN OUR “ACTUAL CONCRETE PARADISE and AUTHORITY” on ALLL LEVELS… AND WE WILL “ONLY” OPERATE ACCORDING TO the LIFE, LOVE, BEAUTY, PLAEASURE, AUTHORITY and HARMONY that we ARE and PRODUCE “NATURALLY”… WE ARE GONNA “LIVE” “IN” OUR REALITY, COMPLETELY “CLOSED” to OUTSIDE MINDS and AUTHORITIES “INFLUENCE” of “ANYTHING”… … …

OF course WE STILL HAVE those that WE SEE and ARE FAMILY that ARE “NOT” MARRIED to US that WE have DEAR to US… So WHEN I SAY “CLOSED”, I’m SAYING “OUR FAMILY LIFE, REALITY and BUSINESS” is “COMPLETELY CLOSED” to “OUTSIDE MINDS” and INFLUENCE… … …

SO “WHY” AM I TELLING Y’all THINGS that YOU PROBABLY “ALREADY KNEW”?… … … Because I’m “TELLING Y’ALL STRAIGHT FORWARD” that “I’M” “NOT” DEALING WITH “NO FUCKIN BULLSHIT” FROM “NOBODY’S” FUCKIN FAMILY MEMBERS… … … WHICH MEANS that “YOU” AIN’T DEALING WITH “YOUR” or ANYBODY ELSE’S FAMILY and they BULLSHIT… … …

I’m COMPLETELY FUCKIN DONE WITH “ALLL” FUCKIN DUMB SHIT, EVIL, MANIPULATION, HATE, DISLOYALTY, DECEIT, FIGHTING, ARGUING, HARD EMOTIONS and “EVERYTHING” ELSE I BEEN FUCKIN FIGHTING “MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE”… WHICH MEANS that Y’all DONE WITH “ALLL” that SHIT as WELL… I’M “NOT” GON TORERATE “ANYBODY’S” DARKNESS, or ANYBODY’S FAMILY HAVING the AUTHORITY to CAUSE “DARKNESS” IN “MY FAMILY” and REALITY… Which MEANS, if “YOUR” FAMILY is “ANYTHING” LIKE “MINE” in “ANY WAYS”, AND THEY JUST “DON’T” UNDERSTAND, YOU GON CUT THEM OFF OR YOU GON BE WITH “THEM”… … …

WE ARE GOING to be “ONE FLESH” LIVING “COMPLETLEY and TOTALLY” IN OUR “NAKEDNESS and HARMONY”… “ALLL” of OUR MINDS WILL BE YOKED to ONE ANOTHER… SO WHAT THAT MEANS IS “I’M” “NOT” LETTING “ANYBODY’S” FAMILY and THEIR ISSUES FUCK UP “MY/OUR” FAMILY, REALITY and HARMONY… … …

Of course “ALLL” FAMILIES HAVE their ISSUES, and I’m COMPLETELY UNDERSTANDING of that, as well as “NOBODY and NOTHING” is “PERFECT”… INCLUDING “MYSELF”… … … BUT PEOPLE JUST DOIN and SAYING “ANYTHING” to YOU “JUST” BECAUSE they HAVE THE AUTHORITY of “FAMILY” to CLOAK that SHIT UNDER, WILL “NEVER” FLY WITH ME… ONCE WE’RE MARRIED I’m NOT GON GIVE a FLYING FUCK ABOUT FAMILY TIES and RELATIONSHIP IF “Y’ALL” ARE BEING “HURT”, or HANDLED in a WAY that “I” SEE as “DISRESPECTFUL”… And IT’S BEST IF “YOUR FAMILY” is ADDRESSED “BY YOU”, as OPPOSED to “ME”… … …

“ALLL” THIS FUCKIN DUMB SHIT is GON STOP as CONCERNING “US”… “ALLL” of US is FUCKED BECAUSE of “SOMEBODY ELSE”… And it’s “MOSTLY” by PEOPLE that “BEEN” SHOWING US they DON’T REALLY GIVE a FUCK “UNLESS” YOUR LIFE LOOKS like “THEY” WANT it TO LOOK… AND I’m SO FUCKIN FAR PASSED DONE WIT ALLL THAT BACKWARDS ASS SHIT, WHILE “I’M” TRYING KEEP EVERYBODY FROM DEATH and DESTRUCTION… … …

I LOVE ALLL that ARE LIGHT, and I LOVE “ALLL” that RECOGNIZE ME and MY BABIES as “FAMILY”… BUT there is a “VERY REAL” POLAR OPPOSITE to THAT LOVE WHEN it’s DISRESPECTED… I’m SAYING THIS “OPENLY” SO that THERE ARE “NO CONFUSIONS” WITH ANYONE, because I KNOW MANY of OUR FAMILY MEMBERS ARE READING… … …

“ALLL” of OUR ENERGY and MIND is ABOUT “OUR REALITY and FAMILY” BEARING “OUR IMAGE” of LIFE and PARADISE, and “NOBODY ELSE’S”… I’m “NOT” GON BE LIVING “IN” MY FAMILY and REALITY, UNDER MY OWN ENERGY and AUTHORITY, BUT I GOTTA DEAL WITH “OTHER PEOPLE’S” BULLSHIT, HELL, DESTRUCTION and NEGATIVE ENERGY IN “MY” FAMILY… … … NOT GON HAPPEN… … …

LASTLY, I NEED, NEED, NEED for “EVERYONE” to KNOW that “THIS” is “NOT AT ALLL” DIRECTED at “ANYBODY” in “ANY WAY”… “I” HAVE NEEDED to SAY this for a LONG TIME and “TONIGHT” just HAPPEN to be PERFECT for it to be SAID… … … So I DON’T WANT “ANYONE” to THINK this to be a SHOT in ANY WAY… I JUST NEED for my BABY’S TO UNDERSTAND “COMPLETLEY” WHAT they ARE WALKING INTO, and “EXACTLY” WHAT “I’M” NOT GON TOLRATE FROM “NOBODY’S FAMILY”, “MINE FIRST”… … …

MY FAMILY “HELPED” BITCHES STEAL FROM ME and MY CHILDREN, HELPED them BITCHES DEVILS MOCK ME and EVERYTHING I BUILT with “MY OWN BLOOD, SWEAT and TEARS”… “FUCK ALLL THESE” EVIL, DARK MFKAS that CAN DO “ANYTHING” because THEY’RE FAMILY, but NEVER WANNA BE HANDLED and RECOGNIZED “OUTSIDE” of the AUTHORITY of FAMILY… … …

KING MAAZYAH

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