Good Evening/Morning Ysrayl…

To my QUEENS and WIVES that “DO NOT” LIVE “IN” “MILWAUKEE”, or HAVE “ANY” “CONCRETE HISTORY” or CONNECTIONS to ME, I NEED to BE “EXTREMELY” CANDID with “ALLL” of YOU about a FEW THINGS… I OF COURSE MEAN “NO ONE” any “DISRESPECT”, BUT I HAVE to BE “HONEST and COMPLETELY OPEN” WITH ALLL of YOU as USUAL… That’s the “ONLY” WAY I KNOW HOW to be… … “I’M STRUGGLIN” REALLY BAD RITE NOW… And WHEN I SAY “REALLY BAD”, I’m SAYING I’m “FIGHTING MYSELF” HARDER than I “EVER” HAVE BEFORE… … …

The TRUTH is, “RITE NOW” “MOST” of Y’all LOOK LIKE SOME “HOES” to ME… And EVEN THOUGH I “DON’T” believe that to be “ACCURATE” as CONCERNING WHO YOU ARE, “ALLL” I SEE is SOME “HOES” that FUCKED AROUND WIT the “WRONG NIGGA, or NIGGAS”, and GOT “YOURSELF” FUCKED UP in a SITUATION… And I “DON’T” WANT to SEE that… But I DON’T “KNOW” ANY of YOU “PERSONALLY”, and I HAVE NEVER MET ANY of YOU “PERSONALLY”… And the FUCKIN BULLSHIT that “I’M” HAVING to DEAL WITH, “AFTER” so LONG and so MUCH HISTORY, I’m SERIOUSLY FEELING “PLAYED WIT”, and like my LIFE and SACRIFICES is BEING TAKEN LIGHTLY… … … “CERTAIN” THINGS there is REALLY “NO TYPE” of “EXCUSES FOR” at THIS POINT… ESPECIALLY IF YOU MINE, and YOU BEEN READING for a WHILE… … … YOU EITHER “GIVE A FUCK ENOUGH”, or YOU DON’T… And THAT’S THE “ONLY” WAY I’m ALLOWED to SEE IT RITE NOW… … …

Because the BOTTOMLINE of “ALLL” this SHIT is “I’M” TAKING “RESPONSIBILITY” for “SEXUAL SINS and BEHAVIORS” that “I” WANT PEOPLE to “DIE and BURN” for… SHIT that “I” AM “COMPLETLEY” FUCKIN DISGUSTED BY, and the MINDSETS that “PRODUCED” THOSE REALITIES is “EXACTLY” WHAT I SEE, and HAVE to “SIFT THROUGH” to “HALFWAY” SEE and BUILD an “UNDERSTANDING” of the PERSON and their NEEDS that “I’M” to LOVE, HONOR, WORSHIP and EXALT IN EVERY SINGLE WAY… … … And like I’VE “EXPLAINED” “COUNTLESS TIMES”, and HAVE DISPLAYED IN “EVERY SINGLE WAY”, ONCE I’m “TUNED OFF” from that BY HOE SHIT or STUPID SHIT that GROWN PEOPLE SHOULDN’T EVEN HAVE TO TALK ABOUT, I’m “OFF”… … … FUCK… … …

I’m DEALING WIT “ENOUGH” HOE SHIT that AIN’T GOT NOTHING to do with “ME” or ANYTHING “I’VE” DONE… And BEEN DEALING WIT “ENOUGH” HOE SHIT, to HAVE the CAPACITY to “LOOK” in ANOTHER DIRECTION when its a “PRODUCTION of REALITY” from those that “I’M” TAKING RESPONSIBILITY for, and RECOGNIZING as an “AUTHORITY” of MY MIND and LIFE… … …

And “THAT” is the PART that I don’t “THINK” “MOST” of YOU COMPLETLEY GRASP with ALLL THIS… “HOW IN THE FUCK” CAN I “EVER” TRUST SOMEONE as an “AUTHORITY” of MY “ACTUAL LIFE”, and I DON’T “KNOW” “FOR SURE” if YOU A HOE or NOT, or if YO ASS GON “FLIP ON ME” and “DO” EXACTLY WHAT YOU SHOWING ME YOU HAVE the CAPACITITES to DO, and “NOT” SEE the AUTHORITY and IDENTITY of a HUSBAND in YOUR WAY?… … …

I’m JUST “NOT” BUILT for the REALITY that “MOST” of Y’all LIVE IN… AND THAT’S MUCH of the REASON for my BEING so “COMPLETLEY NAKED”, and UPFRONT about WHO and WHAT I AM… I HAVE a “VERY STRICT DESIGN”, and SHIT that “LOOKS” like HOE SHIT, “MEANS” YOU ARE a “HOE” in MY REALITY… … … PERIOD… … … AIN’T NO WAY to EXCUSE IT, or “EXPLAIN IT”… … … And MANY PEOPLE “MAY” FEEL like that’s “UNREALISTIC”… MAYBE it IS for SOME, but “THAT’S” the ONLY REALITY that I HAVE, and “I” BEEN “COMPLETEY” UPFRONT ABOUT THAT FROM the BEGINING… … …

WHEN YOU ARE “NOT” THE AUTHORITY of a REALITY, or YOU ARE “REPULSED” by a CERTAIN PRODUCTION, “NOT” ONLY ARE YOU TURNED OFF BY IT, but YOU PROTECT YOUR LIFE and THOSE IN IT “FROM THAT” PRODUCTION at ALLL COSTS… … … And that’s WHY “I” PERSONALLY HAVE “NO TOLERANCE” for “SOME SHIT”… … … FUUUUCCCKKK… … …

“THIS” is WHAT I’m GONNA DO, so I DON’T DO SOMETHING that I “DON’T” WANT to DO… … … I’m GONNA “REMOVE MYSELF” from BEING the “JUDGING AUTHORITY” to “WHO” JOINS “MY/OUR” FAMILY… I OF COURSE WILL HAVE the FINAL SAY SO, but “I’M DONE” JOINING WOMEN to MY FAMILY… … …

And THIS is HOW OUR ORDER will WORK from HERE ON OUT, and THIS is HOW “ALLL” of YOU that “ARE NOT” HERE in “MILWAUKEE”, or “CONCRETELY” YOKED to ME, MY REALITY, HISTORY and LIFE WILL BE JOINED TO ME “CONCRETELY”… … …

I HAVE “SEVEN” BEAUTIFUL QUEENS “TOTAL” that I AM YOKED to BY “LIFE, LOVE, HISTORY ETC that LIVE IN MILWAUKEE, and “ONE” IN ATLANTA… … … “TWO” of THEM I “DO NOT” SPEAK WITH DAILY, or REGULARLY… MY QUEEN MOTHER, with HER AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL, PURE, PRECIOUS, SWEET, SEXY, DELICIOUS SELF… AND OUR “NEWEST BABY”… Well SHE “ISN’T” OUR NEWEST BABY, but THAT’S WHAT I CALL HER… And “SHE” KNOWS WHO SHE IS, WIT HER ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL, SWEET, PRECIOUS, LIFE GIVING, NOURISHING, BREATHTAKING, SEXY, DELICIOUS SELF… … … THESE “SEVEN” WOMEN that ARE “CONCRETELY” YOKED to ME, MY LIFE, REALITY and HISTORY, and HAVE “CONCRETELY” “DISPLAYED” and “PROVEN” their AUTHORITY to “PROTECT and INCREASE MYSELF”, MY MIND, REALITY and EMOTIONS… As WELL as “KEEP” MY IDENTITY, AUTHORITY and IMAGE “ACCURATE” as MY “QUEENS”… “THEY” WILL BE the AUTHORITY of MARRIAGES… MEANING, “THEY” WILL SAY “WHO” JOINS US and WHO DOESN’T CONCRETELY… … …

DOES THAT MEAN that THERE is PREJUDICE in MY QUEENS and WIVES that I DON’T KNOW, or HAVE ANY CONTECTIONS WITH “NOW”… NOT AT ALLL… … … If that WERE the CASE, I WOULD JUST “UNCOVER YOU” NOW and LET YOU BE COMPLETLEY ACCOUNTABLE to YOUR OWN SINS… I CAN’T and WON’T LIVE LIKE THAT ANYMORE “TRYING” to SAVE “SOMEBODY ELSE’S LIFE”… … … What I AM DOIN is “PROTECTING MYSELF”, and “OTHERS” FROM “MYSELF”… … …

I “CAN’T” KEEP” GETTIN “FUCKED UP” BECAUSE EITHER SOMEBODY “DON’T” GET IT, AIN’T DOIN “ENOUGH” to PROTECT ME and MY MIND, or DON’T SEE ANYTING WRONG WITH “HALFWAY” COMMITMENT… … … SO “ALLL” that WILL BE JOINED to US “CONCRETELY”, will BE THOSE THAT “THEY” SEE FIT, and “AS WOMEN” ARE COMFORTABLE WITH THEIR HUSBAND COVERING CONCRETELY… … …

I HAVE TO LIKE and LOVE YOU FOR REAL to PRODUCE the WAY that I AM… AND “MANY” DON’T CONNECT WITH, UNDERSTAND or RESPECT that REALITY “ENOUGH”… And I NEED to MAKE SURE that “I’M” NOT MAKING the WRONG DECESIONS because I DON’T WANNA SEE PEOPLE IN BONDAGE that I LOVE and CARE ABOUT… … …

SO DOES THAT MEAN that “THEY” HAVE the AUTHORITY to “NOT” ALLOW SOMEONE to be JOINED to our FAMILY “CONCRETELY” that “I” ALREADY RECONGIZE as MY QUEEN or WIFE, that is “NOT” HERE or CONNECTED to US “CONCRETELY”?… … … “YES IT DOES”… … … It means that WHEN WE BRING “ALLL” this TOGETHER, “THEY” WILL DETERMINE WHO WILL BE JOINED to US “CONCRETELY”… … …

To “SOME OF YOU” this may “FEEL” “COMPLETELY” UNFAIR… AND I DO “APOLOGIZE” for THAT… THAT is “NEVER” MY INTENTION… I DON’T WANT “ANY” of “YOU to “THINK” that “I” HAVE “ANYTHING” but LIFE and LOVE for YOU, because YOU WOULD BE “COMPLETELY WRONG”… BUT I “NEED” to do BETTER at “PROTECTING MYSELF”… I CAN’T “KEEP” “EXPECTING” “OTHERS” to PROTECT ME LIKE “I” NEED to be PROTECTED… When YOU ARE “STRONG”, YOU JUST “DO IT” and DON’T THINK ABOUT “YOURSELF”… AND “I” SERIOUSLY GOTTA “STOP” DOIN THAT SHIT… … …

SO MOVING FORWARD… … … IF “ANY” of YOU HAVE the AUTHORITY to PRODUCE “FOR”, or ACCORDING to the IDENTITY of “ANOTHER MAN”, or “MEN”, OUTSIDE OF “MYSELF” or THOSE YOU ARE RELATED TO… “ESPECIALLY” WHILE “I’M” OUT HERE RISKING and SACRIFICING “MY LIFE” and SACRIFICING MY BABIES PARADISE, LIFE, LOVE, BEAUTY and PLEASURE”, “YOU” WILL BE COMPLETELY CUT OFF, and YOU WILL BE COMPLETELY ACCOUNTABLE TO YOUR “OWN SINS”… I DON’T KNOW or CARE WHAT YOU HAVE to do to MAKE SURE that that DOESN’T HAPPEN, but I’m SERIOUSLY TELLING YOU that I’m NOT CONTINUING to FUCK MYSELF UP TRYNA COVER SHIT that AIN’T GOT NOTHING to DO WITH ME… And that DISGUSTS ME to my CORE EVEN HAVING to DISCUSS… And I’m NOT TRYNA UNDERSTAND WHY SHIT is so COMPLICATED FOR YOU… … …

KING MAAZYAH

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