Good Evening/Morning Ysrayl…

I trust all is well with you this evening/morning… … … IT’S BEEN “HOT OUT Y’ALL”, and “MY BLACK ASS” TRYNA BE “GROWN” BEEN “SKIPPIN OUT” on my “GROWN UP NAPS”… … … SMH… … … WELL I BEEN a LITTLE BUSY LATELY TOO THOUGH… … … BUT ANYWAYS Y’all, “I’M SLEEPY”… … … BULLSHIT AIN’T NOTHIN… … … SO I’m “NOT” GON BE LONG TONIGHT, and WE JUST GON “CRUISE” IT OUT TONIGHT… … …

“WHOEVER” SAW MY BEAUTIFUL, PRECIOUS, SWEET, LOVELY, BREATHTAKING, HONORABLE, SEXY, DELICIOUS QUEEN PERFORM at the CMT MUSIC AWARDS LAST NIGHT… ALONG with the “AMAZINGLY” “GIFTED” and “TALENTED” GROUP that SHE PERFORMED WITH… PROBABLY was THINKING “EXACTLY” what I WAS THINKING WATCHING my BEAUTIFUL, SEXY ASS QUEEN… … … “GODDAMN SHE BE SINGIN LIKE A MFKA”… … … BABY YOU SOUND “ABSOLUTELY AMAZING”… WOW!!! … …

WHEN YOU “CAN’T” SING WITHOUT “CONFUSING PEOPLE”, INCLUDING “YOURSELF”, BUT YOU BE “TRYIN”… And YOU “SEE and HEAR” SOMETHING like WHAT MY BABY DID, ALONG WITH “ALLL” THOSE “AMAZINGLY” BEAUTIFUL and TALENTED SOULS LAST NIGHT… … … DON’T YOU GET WAAAY TOO EMOTIONAL ABOUT IT?… LIKE THAT’S GON be “YOU” “OUT THERE” ONE DAY” and SHIT… … … LMFAO… … …

Momma “EVERY SINGLE TIME” I SEE and HEAR YOU SING I’m IN “AWE”… NOT JUST BECAUSE “I” CAN’T SING… AND IT “LOOKS” LIKE YOU’RE “LEAPING TALL BUILDINGS IN A SINGLE BOUND” when “YOU” DO IT… … … But YOU just “LOOK” and “SOUND” sooo AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL, PURE, STRONG and AUTHORITATIVE… It’s “VERY REFRESHING” to WATCH and HEAR Baby… AND “I’M” NOT JUST SAYING THAT BECAUSE I’M HUSBAND… I AM “EXTREMELY” PROUD of YOU… … … YOU AND THOSE GUYS SOUND LIKE MAGIC Baby… … … VERY WELL DONE YOU GUYS… … … AND OF COURSE “VERY WELL DONE” to YOU Momma… YOU’RE ABSOLUTE PERFECTION Baby… I LOVE YOU my BEAUTIFUL QUEEN…Xoxo

When I was “IN PRISON” I GOT THROWED IN “THE HOLE” a FEW TIMES… … … ANYONE that HAS BEEN to “PRISON”, and has GOT THROWN IN the “HOLE” for “ENOUGH TIME”, CAN “PROBABLY” TELL YOU ABOUT MEN “LOSING THEIR MINDS” IN the HOLE… … … Either BECAUSE THEY JUST “BEEN IN THERE TOO GODDAMN LONG”, or BECAUSE they’re JUST “NOT” BUILT to HANDLE “THAT” TYPE of “PSYCHOLOGICAL PRESSURE”… … …

IN PRISON, WHEN YOU’RE IN THE HOLE, YOU’RE “CONSIDERED” a “MAXIMUM SECURITY PRISONER”… … … WHICH MEANS that YOU’RE LOCKED DOWN “TWENTY FOUR HOURS a DAY”, UNLESS YOU’RE BEING ESCORTED to the SHOWER… WHICH OF COURSE MEANS “CHAINS AND SHACKLES”… … … BUT BEING IN “THE HOLE”, YOU’RE “TREATED” LIKE YOU’RE “IN THE HOLE”… … …

SO WHEN YOU “HEAR” “FULLY GROWN MEN” “SCREAMING and HOLLERING” like “SMALL CHILDREN” at the TOP OF THEIR LUNGS, “BEGGING and PLEADING” to “PLEASE” BE LET OUT just FOR a FEW MINUTES so they CAN “BREATHE”… … … YOU ALREADY “KNOW” what’s COMING “NEXT” “WITHIN” a FEW HOURS AFTER HEARING THAT SHIT… … …

AND the GUARDS will “SIT THERE and WATCH” a MAN “LOSING HIS MIND” because “TECHNICALLY” “THEY” CAN’T DO ANYTHING FOR HIM BEING a “MAXIMUM SECURITY PRISON”, SENTENCED to “SEGRAGATION/THE HOLE”… … …

SOMETIMES WHEN PEOPLE ARE TRIPPIN OUT LIKE THAT, if THERE ARE GUYS THAT HAVE DONE “HOLE TIME” BEFORE ON THE “SAME BLOCK”, and they ARE CLOSE ENOUGH TO the CELL WHERE the GUY is LOSING IT… THEY’LL TRY TO CATCH HIS ATTENTION, and TALK TO HIM to TAKE HIS MIND OUT OF “THAT CELL”… … … AND IF YOU CAN CATCH HIS ATTENTION “EARLY ENOUGH”, YOU CAN TALK HIM OUT THE CELL, HOPEFULLY UNTIL HE GETS SOME SLEEP… … …

A LOT OF TIMES “THAT” HAS SOMETHING to DO WITH IT… IN THE HOLE “ALLL” of YOUR SENSORY SYSTEM is “THROWED OFF”… YOU REALLY “DON’T” KNOW the “TIME” of “DAY” it IS… OFTEN TIMES YOU DON’T KNOW “WHAT” DAY it IS… WHEN YOU SLEEP and WAKE UP, YOU HAVE “NO IDEA” “HOW LONG” YOU BEEN “SLEEP”… … … SO A LOT OF TIMES YOU CAN “THINK” YOU’RE GETTIN “ENOUGH” SLEEP, but in REALITY YOU’RE ONLY SLEEPING in SMALL NAPS… … …

And IF YOU’RE IN A PRISON/HOLE LIKE “I” WAS, YOU SLEEPIN ON “CONCRETE”… … … YOU’LL GET a PAPER THIN “MAT”… … … BUT YOU SLEEP ON THE HARD ASS CONCRETE… … … I LEFT THE HOLE ONCE with “BRUISES” on my HIPS, BACK, KNEES and RIBS, “JUST” from HAVING to SLEEP and LAY ON THE CONCRETE… … …

ONE “OTHER” WAY to GET “OUT” of YOUR CELL for a LITTLE BIT in the HOLE “BESIDES” the “SHOWER”… Is if YOU BEEN IN THE HOLE for a LITTLE WHILE, and THEY TAKE YOU to SEE the “NURSE”… SHE/THEY CHECK YOU OVER, MAKE SURE YOU NOT DYING, ask YOU a FEW QUESTIONS and THAT’S REALLY about IT… … …

SO MY DAY comes to be TAKEN to SEE the NURSE… Which was OK… EVEN THOUGH I’m “CHAINED and SHACKLED”, I’m “OUTSIDE” OF THAT FUCKIN CELL… “THAT” is “ALWAYS” GOOD WHEN YOU DOIN “HOLE TIME”… … …

SO the GUARD COMES to CUFF and SHACKLE ME to TAKE ME TO SEE the NURSE… AND BECAUSE I WAS a “MAXIMUM SECURITY PRISONER”, THE GUARD HAD TO STAY “IN” THE ROOM WITH ME and the TWO NURSES, EVEN THOUGH I was CHAINED and SHACKLED… … …

SO WHEN WE GET “IN” the “HSU ROOM”(health services unit), there was ONLY the “ASSISTANT NURSE” IN THERE PREPPING EVERYTHING, and the HEAD NURSE was in a SMALL OFFICE ACROSS the WAY… … … SO WE GET IN the ROOM, I SIT ON the TABLE… THE ASSISTANT IS ASKING ME a FEW QUESTIONS… SHE ASKED NORMAL HEALTH QUESTIONS, TOOK MY BLOOD PRESSURE and ALLL THAT GOOD STUFF… … …

NOW “ONE THING” about “MYSELF” is that “I” DON’T and WON’T TAKE “ANYBODY’S” SHOTS… … … I’m “NOT” SCARED of GETTING SHOTS, but “I’M” NOT LETTIN YOU “INJECT” SHIT INTO “MY BODY”… “ESPECIALLY” NO SHIT THAT’S BEING “GIVEN” to “PRISONERS”… … … WHAT THE FUCK TYPE DUMB ASS DO “I LOOK LIKE”?… … …

AND THESE PEOPLE “KNEW” this ABOUT “ME”… ALONG with a FEW “OTHER” THINGS they KNEW ABOUT ME FROM MYSELF HAVING to “MAKE SURE” THEY “UNDERSTOOD ACTUALS” ABOUT “THESE BLACK ASS GENETICS”… SO THEY “KNEW” THAT I WAS “NEVER” GETTIN “ANY” SHOTS, it was “MADE CLEAR” VERY EARLY ON IN MY PRISON STAY… … …

SO I’m SITTING THERE with the ASSISTANT and the GUARD, those TWO were TALKING ABOUT “WHATEVER” and I was JUST WAITING for the NURSE to COME IN… … …

SO SHE FINALLY COMES IN, and I “NOTICED” “TWO” VERY IMPORTANT THINGS “RITE AWAY” when SHE WALKED in the DOOR… … … ONE, SHE was HOLDING a TRAY with about “FOUR DIFFERENT NEEDLES” ON IT… And TWO, WHEN I LOOKED at HER, or TRIED TO MAKE “EYE CONTACT” WITH HER to SAY “HELLO”, IT LOOKED LIKE HER “LEFT EYE” was MOVING in a “CIRCULAR MOTION”, and HER “RIGHT EYE” was “TWITCHING” SIDE to SIDE… Or it “COULDA” BEEN the “OTHER WAY AROUND”… BUT “ALLL” I KNOW IS, NEITHER ONE of “HER EYES” WERE “NOT” LOOKING “AT ME” WHILE SHE WAS TALKING to “ME”, and SHE WAS CARRYING a “WHOLE TRAY” of “FUCKIN NEEDLES”… … …

NOW “FIRST” LET ME “HELP” Y’all TO UNDERSTAND that STATE OF “CONFUSION” I WAS “IN”… … … I’m “IN” THE “HOLE”, IN HSU, “CHAINED and SHACKLED”… THE NURSE WALKS IN with a “WHOLE TRAY” of NEEDLES, and “BOTH” of HER EYES WERE “COMPLETELY” “OUT OF CONTROL”… … … SO I WAS ON A LITTLE BIT of a “HEIGTHENED ALERT”… … …

So I’m JUST SITTIN ON THE TABLE, and THE NURSE IS SITTING IN HER CHAIR WITH HER BACK TO ME WRITING SOME THINGS on a CHART… … … AND “ALLL” I COULD THINK ABOUT was, “I GOTTA SEE THIS LADIES EYES AGAIN” so THAT “I KNOW” I’M NOT “TRIPPIN”… … …

I’m SITTING THERE ANSWERING HER QUESTIONS, but HER BACK is STILL PARTIALLY TURNED TO ME, and I COULDN’T MAKE EYE CONTACT WITH HER… … … SO THIS LADY TURNS AROUND Y’all, and I WASN’T TRIPPIN… “NEITHER ONE OF HER EYES” were LOOKING “AT ME” WHILE SHE was TALKING to ME… … … AND IT was FUCKED UP BECAUSE IT WAS “CONFUSING ME”… … … I “KNEW” SHE was TALKING to ME, BUT “ONE EYE” was MOVING IN CIRCLES, and the OTHER ONE was MOVING “SIDE TO SIDE”… It was CONFUSING ME SO MUCH, that it was MAKING ME “NAUSEOUS”… … … AND I was TRYING “NOT” to be “RUDE” and “STARE”… … …

SO to “EASE” my NERVES a LITTLE BIT, I JUST CAME OUT and “ASKED” HER “WHAT WAS GOIN ON WITH THOSE NEEDLES”… AND SHE LAUGHED a LITTLE BIT and SAID THAT THEY WEREN’T THERE FOR ME, they were for the “NEXT GUY”… … …

AND “EVEN THOUGH” “I” WAS “RELIEVED” that THEY “WASN’T” “FOR ME”, I was “STILL” CONFUSED because THEY FOR “SOMEBODY”… … … AND I BEEN SITTIN HERE TALKING TO HER FOR a GOOD FEW MINUTES and I HAVE “YET” TO MAKE “EYE CONTACT” WITH “ONE” of HER EYES… … …

NOW “THIS” is the “REASON” that I TOLD Y’all “ALLL” THAT… … … The “NIGHT BEFORE” that HSU VISIT, ON THE BLOCK the GUY IN the CELL ACROSS FROM “MINE” STARTED “TRIPPIN OUT”… SCREAMING and HOLLERING, BEGGING and PLEADING to BE LET OUT for a FEW MINUTES so HE COULD “BREATHE”… And A FEW of the GUYS GOT HIM TO CALM DOWN, TALKED TO THEM, and PLAY a GAME of “CHESS” FROM MAKING their OWN CHESS BOARDS in their CELLS and YELLING OUT THEIR MOVES… … …

AND WHEN I SAY that I DIDN’T THINK the MAN was GONNA BE OK that NIGHT BEFORE BECAUSE HE WAS TRIPPIN SO BAD, the MAN was ALMOST COMPLETELY GONE… … …

But Y’all WOULDN’T “BELIEVE” “WHO” UP “NEXT” to GO TO “HSU” and MEET WITH THE “NURSE”?… … … LONG STORY SHORT… … … I DON’T KNOW “WHAT” HAPPENED IN THERE WITH THAT NURSE… BUT what I DO KNOW IS “THIS”… THAT MAN WASN’T “FIGTHIN” NOBODY to “STAY OUT” THAT CELL WHEN THEY BROUGHT HIS ASS BACK… … … AND HE “NEVER” CRIED LIKE a BABY AGAIN “AFTER THAT”… … …

Tomorrow we continue our course

KING MAAZYAH

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