Good Evening Ysrayl…

I trust all is well with you this evening… … … OK, even though I “SAID” we was gon get down wit it this evening… I’m NOT gonna BE ABLE to do THAT… I’m TOO FUCKED UP RITE NOW… … …

But THERE ARE a “FEW THINGS” that “I” NEED to “SAY OPENLY”, and GET “OUT” in the “OPEN” so “I” CAN BEGIN to HEAL in SOME AREAS “MYSELF”… … …

AND “I” NEED for “ALLL” my BABIES to KNOW and UNDERSTAND that “NONE” of THIS “APPLIES” TO “ANY” of “YOU”… YOUR CHARACTER as “WOMEN”, and YOUR IDENTITIES as “QUEENS, WIVES and MOTHERS”… BUT “I” HAVE TO GET THIS OUT BECAUSE “I’M” FUCKED UP… … …

“I” BEEN “ROBBED” MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE by THOSE “CLOSEST” TO ME, THOSE “I’VE” TRUSTED, and WERE “SUPPOSED” to be ABLE to TRUST… “MY WHOLE LIFE”… … …

I HAVE “ONLY” EVER SOUGHT to do “GOOD”, because THAT’S SERIOUSLY “ALLL” I KNOW HOW to DO “AUTHENTICALLY”… BUT I’VE “ONLY” EVER BEEN HARMED and WRONGED for “EVERYTHING” I’ve EVER DONE… AND BY “EVERYONE” I’VE “EVER” ALLOWED MYSELF to get CLOSE TO in ANY REAL WAY… … …

THE “ONLY” THING I “EVER” WANTED as FAR BACK as I CAN REMEMBER, was to be a “HUSBAND” and “GOOD MAN” to a “GOOD WOMAN/WOMEN”… THAT’S the “ONLY” THING I “EVER SAW” as ACTUAL REALITY… AND I’VE “ONLY” SOUGHT to “INCREASE, STRENGTHEN and BUILD” MYSELF in THOSE REALITIES… … …

AND EVEN THOUGH “I” HAVE “DONE” WHAT “I” WAS “SUPPOSED TO DO” as CONCERNING “MY LIFE”, and RESPONSIBILITIES… MY LIFE, MY QUEENS and WIVES WERE “ALLL” STOLEN FROM ME… SOME WERE MADE INTO WHORES, SOME MADE TO “LOOK LIKE” WHORES, BUT ARE “NOT”… … …

But the BOTTOM LINE IS, “I’VE” DONE “EVERYTHING” RITE… BUT “I” GET THE “PAYMENT” of “SIFTING” THROUGH “WHORES, WHORE SHIT, “EVIL” and BONDAGE that BELONGS TO “OTHER MEN”… THAT “MORE THAN LIKELY” GOT WHAT’S MINE, FOR “NOTHING” CLOSE to WHAT “I’VE” HAD to GO THROUGH “JUST” to be “RECOGNIZED” BY “MINE”… … … AND that’s FUCKED UP IF NO ONE HAS REALIZED IT… … …

YOU BEING a “KING”, and “ALLL” of YOUR QUEENS HAVE BEEN GONE THROUGH BY “MEN”… WHERE DOES ONE GET HIS “HONOR”?… WHEN “ANOTHER” MAN can SAY, “YOU” DIED FOR IT, BECAUSE “I” HAD and PLAYED WITH IT… … …

ON TOP OF THAT… HAVING to “SIFT THROUGH” ALLL THIS FUCKIN BULLSHIT that “DON’T” GOT SHIT to do with “ME”, but “STILL” HAVE THE MIND and STRENGTH to SEE WHAT “I” HAVE TO SEE, to “MAINTAIN” STRENGTH and ACCURACY… … …

I WAS “BORN” HATING HOES… IT’S SERIOUSLY “NOT” a JOKE… BUT “ALLL” of “MY QUEENS and WIVES” EITHER “BECAME HOES” THROUGH “SOMEONE’S” LEADING, or “MADE TO LOOK” LIKE “HOES” BEFORE I EVEN REALLY KNOW WHAT THE FUCK was GOIN ON… … … BUT “I” GOTTA “FIX IT”… I GOTTA BUILD AGAINST IT… AND I “GOTTA” RECEIVE “MY NOURISHMENT” FROM IT… … …

ALLL I’VE EVER SEEN, BEEN AROUND and KNOWN ARE “HOES”, and “EVIL, DISGUSTING, TWO FACED, IMPOTENT, PUNK ASS UNLOYAL BITCHES… … … AND “ALLL” THEM HOE BITCHES GOIN TO HELL and DESTRUCTION THAT DESERVE IT… WHICH “DOES” MAKE ME FEEL “A LITTLE BETTER”… … …

BUT “I” SERIOUSLY “DON’T KNOW” HOW to RID MYSELF of the FEELING of “HAPPILY” GET “FUCKED” ALLL OVER AGAIN… BUT “THIS TIME”, ACTUALLY “HELPING”… … … “EVERYTHING” was “STOLEN” from ME… AND “NOW I” HAVE to “FIX” OTHER MENS SEXUAL PERVERSIONS, EVILS, FILTH and CURSE, SO THAT “I” CAN LIVE WHAT “I” WAS GIVEN, “AFTER” I’m DONE… … …

HOW DO YOU “NOT” FEEL LIKE YOU GETTIN FUCKED?… “ESPECIALLY” WHEN “ALLL” YOU GOT TO SIFT THROUGH IS “HOE SHIT”, that “AIN’T” ALWAYS CLEAR IF IT’S THE “ACTUAL PERSON”, or SOME SHIT THEY GOT FROM BEING “SEXUAL and INTIMATE” with “ANOTHER MAN” THAN “MYSELF”… … …

YOU CAN GET FUCKED “SOOO MUCH” that YOU DON’T EVEN “CARE” WHAT HAPPENS ANYMORE… YOU JUST “KNOW” THAT SHIT AIN’T GON HAPPEN NO MORE… … …

I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU… AND “NOTHING” has CHANGED as CONCERNING “MY” LOVE and COMMITMENT to YOU, YOUR/OUR LIVES, BEAUTY, PLEASURE and AUTHORITY… … … BUT “I” GOT FUCKED BY “EVERYBODY”, then “I” GOTTA “FIX IT”, JUST SO “I” HAVE SOMETHING “FOR MYSELF” from WHAT “OTHERS” FUCKED UP… … …

OF COURSE “MANY” of YOU FEEL LIKE the VICTIM RITE ALONG “WITH ME”… … … BUT I’m FUCKIN TIRED OF and DONE EVEN REASONING WITH HOES, “HOE SHIT”, ACCIDENTAL “HOE SHIT”… I DIDN’T KNOW BECAUSE SOMEBODY ELSE, “HOE SHIT”… I WAS YOUNG “HOE SHIT”, I WAS IMMATURE “HOE SHIT”… “I” “SERIOUSLY” “CAN NOT” DEAL WIT, SEE, or BUILD AGAINST NO MUTHAFUCKIN HOE SHIT NO MORE… … …

I FUCKIN HATE HAVING to TALK ABOUT HOE SHIT… LET ALONE HAVING to BE “REMINDED” THAT “I” AM “ESSENTIALLY” SACRIFICING “MY LIFE, PEACE, JOY ETC”, FOR “HOE SHIT” that AIN’T NOTHING to FUCKIN DO WITH “ME”… … …

KING MAAZYAH

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